When I look back on my life, I see just how much time I spent trying to discover who I am. To be honest, much of that discovery was filled with destruction and dead ends. Dead ends when I'd get to a point of knowing who I am and not much caring for that person. Destruction when I tried to drink away how disturbing life can get living in the reality of that kind of dead end.
Then one day I realized I'd spent a lot of time searching for the wrong answer. Life was disturbing because I was spending my time trying to discover who I was instead of first coming to grips with who I belonged to.
Genesis 1:27 says:
So God created mankind in his own image,
in the image of God he created them;
male and female he created them.
If you believe that, and I do, then you can logically begin to understand that discovering who God is will always lead you to a better understanding of who you are than the dead ends we often chase outside of Him. Dead ends I sure spent a lot of time chasing.
The most beautiful understanding I've come to about God is this:
Every day we get to make a choice. Do I focus on how I see myself - and continue down the non existent road in search of a place where I see myself as someone I love. Or do I go down the road of knowing in a deeper way the God I belong to, a road where I am always good enough, a road where I'm loved more than any other road can love me.
Today I'm thankful that although there are times I'm still prone to going down the wrong road, I know the road I belong on. I'm thankful that today when I'm tempted to deal destructively with being at a dead end in life, I quickly realize I'm not at a dead end at all. I'm simply on the wrong road.